My self F2F Me- Our first soulful conversation published online!

As the blog-addiction becomes omnipresent, and you bump into a blogger in every nook and corner of the web today, i have started off a rather late blogger- this being my first ever blog! The feeling, though, is nothing new. Penning down my thoughts/feelings- scribbling down a striking thought with unmatched excitement and freshness, letting all sorts of feelings flow freely over the pages, writing down an incident that gave me sheer joy one day and made the day for me, or some incident that cut me deep down bruising my heart and soul for good- was an old, long-standing habit, somehow lost over the years in living out a routine, mechanical existence where, in Paulo Coelho's philosophy, "every day seems exactly the same".

Today, as i begin to suspect that it's worsening now- that i am living more and more a mechanical existence with the passage of each day- no more capable of feeling the intensity of either joy or, pain that my naturally-sensitive self could always feel in greater measure than i thought was good for myself, no more traversing the seemingly long distance b/w anxiety and relief, despair and hope- over things that should really matter and evoke reactions in me, and worse- my intuition no more guiding me the way it always did!!! The initial realization had dawned some years back- when i was re-reading some of my favorite novels after a gap of some 7-8 years, hopeful of experiencing the same high, the same awe for the characters, the same appreciation for the brilliant dialogues and the story-telling of the author, and of being moved the same way as i was then. It was then that i realized that the link b/w my self and my soul was broken. The words just did not seep into the soul anymore, and from that followed the obvious deduction that my soul has remained wholly unnourished for years!

Through writing down my thoughts and feelings, once again like before, I thought of making a conscious effort at coming F2F with my soul every now and then, and renewing the natural ME. This introductory post is just to acknowledge the compelling need i feel for my soul to guide me, to feel what my self feels, to take deep in what i take in- the way i take in, and to hand me over whatever it has to offer me... and, for us to be in constant touch with each other, always. More later!